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I am the working mother of two little minions, just on a new adventure in another province away from my seaside home trying desperately to solve life's many riddles and find inner peace despite all the chaos...and when all else fails there's always wine.

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

ANOTHER LIST

Well, once again, it is my birthday. Funny how that happens every year.  Last year, in celebration of my 37th year, I made a list; a long, lofty, somewhat laughable list. Was it impossible? No. Did I accomplish all of those things? Not even close. The list was ambitious to say the least. It was largely about accomplishing goals, tackling obstacles, getting things done, challenging myself physically, and pushing myself to be stronger in a way that I really truly wanted to be.  I look back at that list and I do not feel disappointed in myself for not accomplishing even 75% of those goals, not a bit.  I look back at that list and I think...I need a new list...a very different list. 

And so....in celebration of my 38th year...you know that one that leads up to me turning 38, here is my list. Here is my simple list that is not about goals, not about things, or anything material, it is simply about life and peace and light.

In honour of my 38th year, I vow to commit to.....

 - Dance
 - Enjoy the music
 - Enjoy
 - Exercise more, even if that means running laundry up the stairs
 - Laugh
 - Treat myself
 - Just love
 - Create
 - Recognize the souls around me
 - Focus on the good
 - Go outside
 - Take breaks
 - Dream
 - Write
 - Lighten up
 - Don't procrastinate
 - Have fun
 - Smile at everything
 - Act how I want to feel
 - Be authentic
 - Remember what I know
 - Remember my lessons
 - Remember my roots
 - Remember who I am
 - Let love always come first
 - Read
 - Sleep
 - Let it be
 - Let it go, and,
 - Lean into it.....

I went for a walk the other day in the last sunlight of the day and  in all the glory of the colours of autumn. The poplar leaves have turned so many stunning shades of yellow and orange it is as though sunshine itself has taken up residence in every single branch. The air was cool and full of promise, every breeze was a breath of life. I tipped my head up to the sky and smiled and enjoyed every leaf dancing on the wind, every colour, every sound, every sight before my eyes.

I am going to hold that walk in my heart and for this, my 38th year, I will carry that walk with me along every path I take. I will focus on my list and that walk and carry it all with joy and lightness and love. 

“The eternal present is the space within which your whole life unfolds, the one factor that remains constant.”
 - Eckhart Tolle











Tuesday, September 22, 2015

BEAUTIFUL, SOULFUL WORDS

I promised myself I would try to come back to this blog; to pour myself back into my life and write something, even something small, once a week. It's happening, but very slowly.  Sometimes when we cannot find our own words, we find little bits of our hearts and minds in the words of someone else. That was the case this week, I had no words, and then I read some.

I am surprised my cousin Laura ever learned to walk. She was a beautiful, little, doll of a girl, captivating all of our hearts and so we (her older cousins and myself) carried her everywhere; we never wanted to let her go or put her down.  Now our little dolly is all grown up and still she captivates me. 

The other day I saw a post from this lovely soul, who happens to be family, and I had to share it; I am in awe of her. I am in awe of the passion and commitment in her words, whenever I read them, and of the way in which she (and her brothers by the way, who are equally amazing) live their lives with such joyful intention.  I hope that you enjoy these inspiring words as much as I did....

"A friend recently asked me what my 'goal' for the future was.  My desire is to live as happily and authentically as possible based on my accumulated knowledge and experience (which is constantly evolving) aka I want to walk my talk. I does not feel enough to just have knowledge and not embody the lesson it represents or integrate its meaning into my life.  It truly bothers me when I see an angry, obese, smoking, overtired medical doctor doling out health advice like they know what's up. No.  Listen to the people who embody what they preach, because it is among the hardest things in life.  Knowing what to do and actually doing it...whole different ball game.  I seek out and accept advice from thriving folks....the ones shooting sunbeams from their eyeballs, the ones who love despite fear, who take their own medicine, who walk their own talk. To me, intelligence is not actualized it is embodied.  I chose to live in alignment with the knowledge I have stumbled upon in my life.  Alignment feels good."

These words echo a very simple truth.....I cannot get enough of these words.  They are beautiful and inspiring words from a beautiful and inspiring soul.

Please read this as well....It is brimming over with intelligence, soul and truth....

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/06/a-non-linear-life-lessons-from-nature-laura-ward/

LB I am so very, very proud of you, and I love you to pieces. 

Friday, September 11, 2015

ON THIS DAY THE WORLD STOPPED

14 years ago today, when the world stopped, and we all stood in shock and disbelief of what we were seeing and hearing and feeling, we were united not in our opinions of what or who was right or wrong, not in our politics, cultural or religious beliefs. Rather we were united, on that single day, in our respect for the unquestioned bravery of those who went in, without hesitation, to the rescue. We were united in our deepest sympathy for all the loved ones lost and lives that would never get to be or were forever altered. We were united in the heartbreak that comes from innocent lives fractured and dispersed as a result of righteous violence and perpetuating hate, on this day and on all those that came after in the name of vengeance.


Our hearts ached in unison as we found that we could be simultaneously, overwhelmingly proud and deeply ashamed to be part of the human race. Today is a day that is worth remembering for that alone and to reflect on an intention that we should all carry with us as we move forward in a life that many were parted from 14 years ago. An intention to live our lives in gratitude for all that we have and to live without anger, violence or hate.  This is how we should honour the souls of 9-11, and how we ultimately will honour ourselves.